I cannot focus on writing

It is Sunday afternoon and I cannot focus on writing. This morning my virus detection program took over six hours to check my system and found no threats or warnings. I spent the time doing housework, cooking, and getting Mom out of bed. Once I got Mom out of bed, fed, dishes washed, and the trash taken out then the virus scan completed its scan.

The virus scan did not end my problems with technology. It took another three hours to figure out why I could not get online and that taken care of. By the time I finished that, it was time to eat again and we eat or at least Mom eat; I am was not longer hunger for anything. I am still not hunger, so I probably will not eat anything the rest of the day; however, I do have to get Mom something to eat because it is about 3:00 PM and time to give her another pill.

This may be my last weekend blog entry; I am seriously considering going to weekday blog entries only. If I do that it will make weekends less stressful because I will not have to worry about making an entry in this blog. The down side is that it will make accomplishing my daily word count goal more difficult, especially on the weekends. However, I cannot see any other solution. I am under stress and I cannot think. I am tired. I would like a short nap, but that is out of the question.

Rethinking my goals

There are approximately 39 days left in 2011, so it is time to rethink my writing goals. I changed from a nineteen-day goal achievement focus to a 30-day focus. I am going back to the nineteen-day focus because it is easier (for me) to determine where I am falling short and what I have to do to accomplish the goal.

A 30-day focus is too stressful and gives me too much time to procrastinate. By setting my goals for nineteen days at a time, I have less time to put off and I cut frustration to a minimum. I have found that the more I putt off the more frustrated I become when I do not achieve a specific step in the goal achievement process. The less time I have to procrastinate the better off, I am because I decrease the stress.

A Writer’s Perspective: Second guessing myself and stress

This morning, before the chores of the day got to me. I planned to title this entry “A Writer’s Perspective: Euphuisms and Slang”. That went to the wayside (for this week anyway) after I returned home from the laundromat. I am a bit leery about writing on that subject this afternoon, perhaps because I did not start working on it this morning.

I cannot seem to start the subject. Perhaps because I am “second guessing myself” and attempting to talk myself out of writing on either euphuisms or slang. Perhaps it is because I did not write down my thoughts this morning. Which ever it is, I cannot focus on the planned subject this afternoon.

I am not giving up the idea of writing my thoughts about euphuisms or slang. I think that will be the subject for next Tuesday. Between now and then I will keep notes and attempt to remember the way I wanted to begin that entry.

This is not the first time I have talked myself out of writing on a specific subject and posting it to one of my blogs. I suppose this could be a reaction to stress. I have been under a lot of stress lately and I have not been writing about it, which may explain why I am dealing with a bad case of psoriasis. Writing about the stress always helps alleviate the stress. Even if I do not post what I write, writing helps overcome the stress.

Five months into 2011

It is five months in to 2011 and I am not sure how things are going in my life. I still stress out over almost everything; however, I am not saying prayers when I stress and that helps dissipate the stress.

I did not get as much writing accomplished in April, as I wanted. I did not make a blog entry every day, which added to the stress. For me, the only actions that alleviate the stress are prayer and writing. When I pray or write I cannot worry when I focus my thoughts on positive actions. Therefore, the only way for me to keep from worrying is to write and pray.

I suspect there are other actions that will alleviate or refocus the stress and worry. I simply have to look for them. When I find a stress relieving action, I will make an entry in one of my blogs.

It’s Saturday and I’m so stressed I could....

It’s Saturday and I’m so stressed I could bite the head off a pit viper and survive. That is a good metaphor, because it is fresh and expresses the way I feel. Metaphors are good writing tools, but they have to be fresh. They have to be interesting and they have to express the feeling.

Stress is also a good writing tool, but only if you can use it in a poem, story, or article. Stress without an appropriate outlet is dangerous. Stress can cause all sorts of physical and health problems for a person if it has no place to go. Writing is a good outlet for stress.

As a writer, I can use the stress I feel as the subject of a poem, story, article, or blog entry. I find that the problem, when writing about stress, it to find a good metaphor to express the feeling. In a private journal entry, it does not matter if the metaphor is lousy, because I am the only one reading it and I can always rewrite the if I want to post the entry to my blog or use it in a story. A metaphor used in a published work should not be overused rather it should be fresh.

My Mouse Died

19 Mashiyyat 164 B.E. - Sunday, October 14, 2007 about 10:58 PM PDT

My mouse died, it finally gave up the ghost. It's been acting up for several days and quitting in the middle of documents. I turn the mousekeys on a few days ago and am using them right now. I may be using them for quite a while since I can afford a new mouse until at least the end of October. Oddly enough I'm not upset or even worried about the mouse. The only disadvantage is the inability to use the numeric keypad and that isn't actually a disadvantage.

It's slow going sometimes without the mouse, but it's an interesting experience. Especially since I'm not using my reading glasses right now. I'm wearing the glasses I use to drive with, my reading glasses are hidden somewhere in the house. All right, maybe hidden isn't the right word, I took them off and laid them down, now I can't find them. I'll run across them in a day or so, but in the mean time I'm not going to use that as an excuse not to write.

The last eight months have been stressful. The stress is finally catching up with me, so I'm going to have to relax and stop obsessing over things going on. I say obsessing because that what I do rather than worry. I just need to learn to relax and not to sweat the small stuff. I think what I need is a vacation or at least to get out of Vegas for a day.